I haven’t been here in a long time.

Ive been soo sad. So hurt. So mad at myself. I feel like I’m in the most consistently dark place I’ve ever been in. I’m ruining my life. I’ve never thought about dying so much.

I finally found love. Don’t think it’s for me. I can’t handle it. I’m too broken. I need too much.

I want to disappear. But at all the same I just want the means to wander. I’ll be sad but I can be sad and in awe of the world.